PracticeNotes 2016-01-28

Today was the first time in this week I accomplished the complete Primary Series ( or second time? )

Sometimes it is quite hard to make it , I am so easy to get distracted by anything

So now quite often I practice with Guruji;s video on YouTuBe which he led 6 senior students , it motivates me a lot just follow the flow.

Recently after watching the tutorial video from Jessica Walden which she showed how to apply Uddiyana Bandha into forward bending, I started to pay more attention and awareness on that while doing forward bending.  I felt a bit different when I put the attention on bandha, I feel in this case there is no so called “intense or extreme ” forward bend which may be concerned to cause the injury of the lower back or to stretch too much of the hamstrings.  In that video Jessica explains quite clear so I don’t need to write more about that.

Jump back is still impossible for me, I still can’t even lift myself up with the feet off the floor, jump through part I got some tiny tiny progress ( sometimes, not always) which is I feel lighter when I try to jump forward and with a tiny bit more control, but maybe out of fear my feet will still just drop down immediately.

Oh right today today was the FIRST time I can grab my fingers of BOTH SIDE IN MARICHYASANA D!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

As for Urdhva Dhanurasana , now mostly I can just rest on my head between the second and third time instead before I always had to lay myself down on the mat again at least after the second time when I got some strength back with my Quad then I finished the third time.

Sirsasana A for 25 breaths but half way only 3 breaths hahaha

Utpluhtih 10 breaths!

Thanks for myself for completing the whole series!!

Oh , today the neighbor begun their construction already at 8! It was surely a big challenge while practicing, had to remind myself always come back to my own breath not to influrenced by the noise and the shaky floor.

 

 

 

Teaching – Wed first session

Iconic image of Krishnamacharya, the modern godfather of Yoga as it is practised in the west. He taught the ribcage breath, beginning the inhale around the collarbones, then filling from top down. This triggers Uddiyana Bandha at the initiation of the inhale, and makes the classic "belly breath" impossible.

I am so lucky to have one more class on Wed from this week!

Some of the participants are same with the monday course, also 3 new.

Today I taught Ashtanga kinda intro, the asanas we did today not even half of what I planned as always.

It is really not easy to teach in a group, everyone has different need and level, luckily except a girl , the others have pretty similar level. However, even so , students still tend to want something which is actually out of their limit. I am still learning to find the balance between not to bored them and correct foundation / alignment.

So today what we accomplished are

Two very different ways of breathing with the diaphragm.
Fully belly breathing and ribcage breathing
I found this pretty clear explaination the distinguish of these 2 breathing technique from here 

Belly breathing / Abdominal Breathing, where the belly bulges out on the inhale, is the first method students are taught. Accustomed to a fast pace of life, many people habitually only breathe into the chest using the top part of the lungs, which is inefficient and stimulates the stresses associated with the fight or flight response. Belly breathing helps students learn to breathe deeper, and serves a necessary role in teaching deeper breathing that helps calm the mind in some forms of meditation. Sometimes, it can be used in “physically lazy” Hatha yoga approaches that are relaxing, restorative, and require little muscular effort. The lower abdomen is relaxed, and the breath pushes the belly out, as the muscles connecting the ribcage to the diaphragm contract. This is often mistakenly referred to as THE technique “diaphragm breath” which is misleading since there are other ways to breathe with the diaphragm that also stabilize the spine. Reliance on only using this method contributes to bad posture.

Rib-cage breathing: Another style of diaphragm breathing taught in Ashtanga and Power yoga involves keeping the lower abdomen engaged and sucked tightly in, two inches below the navel. This causes the ribcage to move upward on the inhale and expand out to the sides. This style of deep breathing is commonly confused with shallow chest breathing, but make no mistake. This is the strongest deepest breath you’ll ever take. It is physically impossible to properly extend the spine without the Uddiyana Bandha drawn in (referring to the lower portion of the transverse abdominus, below the navel). Try doing the classical yoga posture Chair pose (Utkatasana) with your belly relaxed, and the spine will be unable to find the ideal neutral position.

I can’t sure if they really understand or not..

Then we did 2 exercises of engaging the core muscles which I learned from Tom’s Workshop.

1.Lie down on the mat, knees directly above the heeps
Inhale,
exhale, knees to chest , belly in
inhale back to center
exhale lower feet down toward the floor but can’t touch the floor
more challenging with legs extended

2. inhale, center
exhale, bring knees to the side, toward elbows, shoulders stay on the ground
inhale, center
exhale, twist to another side
getting challenging by extend the upper leg then with both legs straight

3. Bridge exercise
inhale , lift the butt
exhale, lower the butt but not touch floor
repeat several times
then one leg extended hold for some seconds

After these exercises slowly into the flow

Cat Cow
Downward dog

I still have problem of teaching downward dog
I feel this is actually very challenging for most of people
the most mistakes I saw from my class are
fingers close together
wrists twisted in a unnatural way
hands distance not wide enough
shoulders position too forward, shoulder blades squeeze together
Shoulders squeeze neck
Hyperextend of the elbows
Feet too far from hands
Use the palms but not the base of fingers and finger knuckles

After the first Downward Dog we came to standing

Sometimes I am worried that they feel very tired of me always repeat how important the breath and Samasthiti is

Ekam, Dve, Trini repeated 3 times then into the complete Surya Namaslara A

I modified the flow to a simpler one by
Plank with knees down and take extra in breath
exhale lower all the way down
inhale to cobra
exhale through the hands and knees to downward dog

The 4th and 5th time hold in plank for one extra breath

I want to know how to make students have improvement of their arms strength and core strength, and one day be able to do full Chataranga

Standing Sequence
Padangustasana
most of them have problem place the palms on the mat

Utthita Trikonasana

Utthita Parsvakonasana

Prasarita Padottanasana A and C

Utthita Hasta Padangusthasana A modified by holding the knee

Utthita Hasta Padangusthasana B

then lift the leg

then directly through vinyasa to seated sequence

Dandasana

Paschimottanasana A

Inbetween I made them to try to lift the hips over the floor

Purvottanasana with knees bend
but still to most of them this is very challenging with the hips lifted

Baddha Konasana

Marichyasana C simple version

Bridge

Happy Baby

Rewinde Baddha Konasana

Savasana

Today Ani said she still felt upper back pain while doing yoga
I think it was due to downward dog as I noticed she has hyperextend of elbows and she tended to squeeze her shoulders and the distance between hands are too narrow , caused the tension of the back
I suggested next time replace down dog with extended puppy pose and use the real mat , see if back still hurt.

Hope they like todays class

The more I teach the less meaning I found with IG yoga …..

Faith

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I failed again with dealing with B, I gave the responsibility out again by blaming him. I felt angry and betraied again. I just could not sitting there listening how strong feeling he has toward the another person.

The feeling of being betraied rose again.

I went to my room lock myself in, I chanted, but then even I chanted I was seeking from outside , I wanted to seek comfort from outside, it s alwas my tendency. I want everyone to comfort me. I made myself a inicent victim.

Then a yogi friend’s words woke me up, he said bye, your will power is so low, i don’t understand anything if life, i don’t need to learn anything in life. My emotions is totally not under my control.

Those words are so harsh, yet I know in my deep down, they are true, he is right.

I allow myself beat down and suffer by other’s life journey.

Whatever happened they are all just part of life, why I suffer, if I my will power was strong enough , if I was strong encough, I would not let these bother the peace of my mind.

Then I felt quilt again, how can I be so weak when I at the same time practice lion like Buddhism and Yoga, why I still keep seeking from outside and have so much fear.

This morning, I read the post from Peg, she mentioned about the relationship between her and her daughter. She was asked advice in raising her own daughter.

She said : ” it’s kind of like our yoga practice. And I mean this. You want to wake up each morning, with a steady devotion. Some days, you’ll feel like you’ve “nailed it!” and sometimes, you failed it. But most of the time, it will just be you – getting up each morning, devoted to the practice of being a mum – and not knowing if you did either. Just knowing you did your best.
It really is the steadiness and devotion that builds our foundation. We may begin with a vision of what we are building – but it’s the foundation that must absorb us. Because really, we have no clue (or even control!) of what’s to be created.
We have to trust the process. It’s easy to do when it seems to be working. Easy to stay steady when we see the results we want. But it’s the rest of the time that really makes the difference. Stay faithful to the process and open to what’s to come. I guess that’s my best advice. ” ~ Peg Mulqueen

I think this can apply to every challenges we are facing in life. Yes, I failed , countless time, but today I am still breathing, I can still get up and try again. Like Sensei always encouraged us, we can renew our determination every moment, we fail , then we get up, we fail 10 times, then get up at the 11 th time. Human relationships are sometimes painful, but there is no such pain from which we cannot recover. It is up to us to decide to live a life free from self-doubt and despair in spite of our failures. Indeed, it is during our most humbling moments that we should show greatest poise and grace. Then the dignity of our lives will truly shine.

I think that is trust , that is faith and surrender mean. We don’t know the result, but still we get up every morning, devoted to the practice of being a better huamn, and is this steadiness and devotion builds out foundation. Develop ourselves exactly through how we face obstacles and  we build our personalities through how we wrestle with our problems, and that is what true happiness mean, I believe.

Self Doubt

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Today after the afternoon private class, the student told me she wants to take a break from yoga class.

She can count as my very first student and has taken 30 classes with me. I know her grandpa was suffered from cancer and just passed away, during the time I tried to comfort her , gave her the warmth , just hoping she would not be so sad and felt alone. Today’s class I also actually specially designed for her, I wished it could bring her some positive and peaceful energy.

I know I should not take it personal, however  I still felt sad because I felt I was unable to help my student . I failed to make her feel better. Or maybe I gave her too much stress by showing too much care?  I don’t know ..

What I could do is only chant for her, pray her true happiness, and try not to beat myself down by thinking I  am a bad teacher….